Welcome back to Day 20 of Our Adoption Adventure. To read from the beginning click here.
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Driving into the empty
parking lot at 4:30am, the hospital appeared to be closed. We parked and walked
in. We could not find anybody to show us where to go. I saw a sign that pointed
to the elevators and the maternity floor.
During
the last few years of our adoption journey I talked to friends who
adopted and listened to their stories. They gave mixed reports about how the hospital staff treated adoptive
parents. Some hospital staff welcomed the adoptive parents immediately and
referred to them as the parents. Other friends told how hospital staff ignored
them, did not allow them access to the baby and would not accommodate their
requests.
Knowing
these stories, I was apprehensive when
we arrived at the maternity floor. I had no idea what to say or how we
would be received. We walked down the hallway to a locked door with a large clear
glass window. We rang the buzzer, hoping there would be someone to let us in
and show us where to go. A short, perky nurse appeared at the window. Before we
were able to say anything, she smiled and blurted out,
“You must be
the parents of the twins! We’ve been expecting you!”
She
seemed genuinely glad to see us. So far this was going better than I expected.
I breathed a sigh of relief.
We
followed her down the hallway. She explained that normally the hospital only
allows two people to have bracelets for access to the babies for security
reasons. Emma had one bracelet and she wanted me to have the other. However,
Emma’s mother insisted that she have the other bracelet. The nurse told us this
should not be a problem though, because the nursing staff had been informed to
give us access to the babies.
I
wasn’t exactly sure how to processes this information. It didn’t matter to me
as long as we were able to see the babies. She led us into a small room where
another nurse was holding a stethoscope to the chest of one of the babies.
I
entered the dimly let room first. Looking to my right, swaddled tightly in a
blanket with a blue and pink striped newborn cap on, was the sweetest baby boy,
sleeping in a bassinet.
I
looked to the left and the larger baby was under a heat lamp, wearing only a tiny
diaper. The nurse was recording his information in his chart. He was
equally as sweet as his brother.
My heart melted. Silent tears streamed
down my cheeks. My husband would say later he could hear the giant splash as I
dove head first into the emotional pool as soon as I saw those babies. I don’t
usually believe in love at first sight. But there, in that hospital room, looking at those sweet baby boys I fell in
love with them instantly.
The
swaddled baby was tiny at just five pounds. He had a perfectly round face,
beautiful light brown skin and dark brown hair. When he opened his eyes they
were like round saucers on his face. The nurse swaddled up the larger baby. He
was longer and weighed six and half pounds. This was large for a twin born
three weeks early. His skin was lighter and his face not as round as his
brother. I was thankful that even though they had similar features I could
immediately tell them apart. They were so beautiful because they were delivered
by C-section and did not endure the stress of the birth canal. They heads were
perfect. Their skin was smooth. They did not have that wrinkly newborn look.
Their dark features were striking under their pastel caps.
I
looked around for my husband. He was hesitating in the doorway, not fully in
the room. He looked a little stunned.
“What’s
wrong?”
I asked.
“Nothing,” he said. “I’m
just kind of shocked to see these two little babies after all these months.”
He
had a camera and began taking pictures. The nurse showed us where the miniature
bottles of formula were.
“They haven’t
eaten yet,” she said. “Would you like to feed them?”
There
was a rocking chair in the room. I gently picked up the smaller baby and instinctively
sat with him and fed him his first bottle.
“I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before
you were born I set you apart . . .” Jeremiah 1:5
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Was it love at first sight when you saw your
child?
**** To read Day 21 click here. ***
from the first picture we saw of CJ at four months old- instant love! Oh, how I treasure those memories!
ReplyDeleteThat's great Michele! God knows just who will have our heart.
DeleteSo sweet. My post today is about being joyful just watching my kids play, When I think of how much I love my kids and consider that God loves us more, it is pretty overwhelming.
ReplyDeleteChildren are definitely a gift from God. Thanks for stopping by!
DeleteThis is a beautiful post! Adoption is very close to my heart, and maybe it's part of God's plan for me someday.
ReplyDeleteThanks! Adoption is a miraculous thing. Please don't let the rough spots in our story discourage you. We have been amazingly blessed and the whole journey was so worth it.
DeleteI have goosebumps after reading your posts! Your sons are blessed to have you for a mommy :) I was overwhelmed by love at first sight with my two kiddos.
ReplyDeleteWe have been the ones blessed by having them. It is amazing that you can look at a sweet newborn and they have your heart right away.
DeleteWhat a relief! I found Day 20. Waiting on 21! How precious to see them for the first time. Yes, definitely fell in love with my three, now 22, 24 and 30. My heart still skips when I see them!
ReplyDeleteGlad you found it! I'm sorry I have been posting so late at night. I am hoping to get ahead with this now. --It was the sweetest thing to see them for the first time.
DeleteTearing up reading your post. What sweet memories to capture in words! And, absolutely, this mama believes in love at first sight.
ReplyDeleteThanks for reading! There is nothing like a mama's love for her babies.
DeleteSo beautiful. I love reading your adoption story.
ReplyDeleteThank you Sarah! I appreciate you reading!
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